The world is your oyster, that's how the saying goes. 

Life is a crazy concept in the mind of an individual.  You live and learn all along racing through life to discover its true meaning.  We fall, we stand up and we continue down a path that will deliver us to an understanding. 

I feel I have lived one hell of a life and that life has lived one hell of me.  I am constantly slashing through miles of thoughts and wonders about what it all means.  Why am I here?  Why did I make it out when so many others have fallen or are continuously cursed by things that haunt their soul?  Who am I...

Everyone has that one defining moment that shatters their world and everything they believed to be real.  It crashes into your self-absorbed abstract of an existence and forces you to make a decision...and a hard one at that.  For me it was my constant companion, cancer.  It attacked me in a way I never knew existed and inflicted pain I never knew was possible.  It was my defining moment but is not the definition of who I am. 

I have raced through life headstrong and determined to reach my oyster.  During this race I have stumbled into storybook friend ships that will last the ages and hurt people who loved me.  I have exploded through obstacles and achieved goals at each stage of my life.  I have loved, I have hated, and I grown.  I am who I am because of the road I have traveled.

Its hard not to smile when you sit back to reflect on the past and look forward to your future.  Frankly, it is all astonishingly beautiful.  After reading this passage stop and take a moment to reflect.  Do not dwell on the past but bask in what you have learned.  Do not fear what the future holds yet understand that you will be ready.  Go ahead I'll wait.

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Pretty amazing isn't it?  It is amazing what your mind can teach you when you take the time to listen.    

I took a deep breath today and then slowly let it out, something I rarely ever do.  With the inhale of that breath, my mind drifted to my existence and with the exhale came a euphoric understanding of my life as is stands.  I realized that to live life is to learn life.  I am growing into the man that will one day be ready to shuck his oyster and place his fingers around its pearl.  I will be ready to appreciate its beauty and wield its power.

To be continued...